Wandering into wonderland

Hello friends, I am back after an unintentionally long break. It seems my mind is not able to come up with any logical, coherent thoughts. Rather than wait any further, I thought it best to present my somewhat incoherent thoughts.

I wonder..why?

I asked myself quite a few questions, but could find answers only for a few,

For the rest, my search for an answer will continue

I wondered if I am managing my expenses well,

I decided to make a few excel templates which will have the right story to tell

I wondered why my bank balance graph has taken a big dip,

I realized that over my expenses, I have starting losing the grip

I wondered why in spite of all this spending, my lifestyle remained the same mostly

I realized that just the maintenance of an existing lifestyle itself has become costly

I wonder wherewould I be in the coming years? But I don’t think the answer is anywhere near

I wonder where I want to be next year…but the answer is still unclear

I wonder if I have taken control of life or life has taken control of me!

At present I feel it is more of the latter,

Unless I wake up and start making the moves that matter

I wonder why I feel as thought I am staring into a deep black hole,

I realize that staying indoors for three days of the long weekend has taken its toll!

There are a few lessons that I learnt from this self introspective exercise. But the most important lesson was that, staying alone at home for longer periods can be injurious to my mental balance! Going to office after the long weekend seems to be a welcome change. At least I get to escape the difficult questions that my idle mind seems to come up with.

In order to avoid any further attempts at self introspection, I have decided to keep myself out of home during the next weekend.

PS:

I also start to wonder why I have this compulsive need to write lines that rhyme,

I just hope, this habit will soon die with time!!